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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

09.06.2025 15:53

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I think the readers, may guess!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Should I have left it alone and kept quiet? I came out as gay to my adult kids last week. Age 61 married 15 years, divorced for 20. I feel so guilty for ruining their lives by living a lie.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

My family never makes their pension either.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I feel like my boyfriend doesn't love me. Why?

He knew the spot.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

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She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

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The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

It was going to be , some day.

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I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

But it wasn’t much.

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At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

How do you have intercourse with a girl who can remember you for a long time?

Who then, do I blame.?

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

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One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

He resisted the act ,that day.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

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I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

But ive been too sick for many years..

I will be 64.

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I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

And i lived it daily.

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She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Why did i forgive my father ?

What if you were the only and last person left on Earth. How will you survive and what would you do with your life?

She married twice! .

All the time i was locked up.

This is soul school!.

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Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Ive learnt so much.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

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I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

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We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I never cut or harmed myself..

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I said to her

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Comes on , in middle age.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

She found it foreign!.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

One cannot live in the past .

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I was 9 years of age.

Was to survive, this bastard.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

So whats the point in blame.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

She wouldn,t have been !

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

So, i spoilt her more .

Would this be the day?

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

My life is so biszare .

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

We were not on the streets..

And who doesn’t know suffering?

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

(And it was in our own minds.)

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I write beautiful poetry .

Put me off passion for life!!

When she asked me how she looked .

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I was seconnd youngest,

As i do to all so called friends.?

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I waited trembling.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I have no regrets .

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

She loved him until the end.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

She was in good health!

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Im still living with it.

I was scared of men, in general

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I don,t even have a pension.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

But, we were locked up after school.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I could never make a relationship work though!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I was very sick at this time too.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I couldn’t, believe it.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

What did i know ?

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Especially a lifetime of it.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

We all went to grammer schools

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .